"Are you sad, Lydee?"
With a sweet little nod, and a response in a whisper, "yes".
"Will you tell me your sad thought?"
The words quickly spill from her mouth, "I wish this was a perfect world".
"Oh, sweetie. It will be one day. God promised that He would come back and make everything perfect again."
To want her to stay here with us in this condition would only be selfish. She longs to run and play. She longs to be where things are perfect. She wants to be with Jesus.
These days are hard.
God gives us strength and grace to sustain us through each one.
I wept as I spoke words of love and edification over my girl ~ explaining how she has so beautifully lived out faith, trust and God-given grace through some hard days. She sweetly smiled and giggled as I expressed my momma heart to her. I encouraged her to continue to trust Him to give her just what she needs for each day. I told her how much I love her and try to take the very best care of her, but how my love is not perfect and I often make mistakes. I reminded her that her Heavenly Father's love is perfect and He never makes mistakes. I told her I was not afraid of her going home to Him and I asked her if she had any fear of that. She assuredly responded, "no".
No fear.
Just burdened with this hard life.
For God has not given us a spirit of fear,
but of power and of love
and of a sound mind.
2 Timothy 1:7
My best friend and life partner reminded me the other night that as much as He's comforting our hearts, He's probably comforting hers even more. Willie and I have had some of the deepest conversations lately. So thankful for the growth this suffering has brought to our marriage.
God's love for us has been so evident. His presence is heavy in this place. He has surrounded us with folks these past 2 years that have loved on us and encouraged us along the way. He has been faithful in the past. That reassures this momma's heart He is trustworthy with the future.
I am praying for you. I know this is a hard road for every one of you. The faithfulness you all have displayed is incredibly God honoring.
ReplyDeleteI am praying for you sister...last night I before bed and then in the middle of the night and this morning. You are not alone and you all know that and this road has growth our Faith. Yesterday I was thinking about Heaven all day as I worship our God. I heard music to remind me of that and prayed for you during it all. This world is not perfect but how great it will be when we all get to live together once again in perfection with the Father.
ReplyDeleteLove you much your sister in Christ,
Jessie
praying that His unshakable peace continues to consume you, willie, lydia and the boys.
ReplyDeleteYou are a pillar of strength. Lydia is a very lucky little girl to have known your love. I pray for your family often.
ReplyDeleteAssuredly you receive so many comments on your blog and I am compelled to lift my prayers for your family this morning and cry tears that are not mine to be cried. The Holy Spirit has given your family the ability to rely on His strength and His love and I cannot imagine what it would be like to go through this type of trial without Him. I began following Lydia's story through a friend I know from Unity Free Will Baptist. As a mother I mourn for you and as a sister I embrace you. Your testimony is such a beautiful picture of what a relationship with Christ should be: totally and utterly surrendered to his love, will, and being "ok" with whatever it may be. God Bless you and your family and may He continue to hold you all every so tightly as you go through each coming minute.
ReplyDeleteEmily; Woodbridge, VA